angry with the world

Yes I'm angry with the world.

Can't participate without money.

Trying to fit in doing unpaid work, why am I doing unpaid work?

Because i mustbe very stupid.

UCU pension negotiations are going well UCU members will have thier pensions protected, good, but I don'e even have a pension, haven't been that smart.

I've been in crisis management mode for all my working life, just haven't got onto a career path, no career path, I've worked hard all my life but not in the right places, independent ones

that haven't amonted to much, quick fix jobs, need a job, get a job, working so hard that I haven't thought that one day I'll be thinking that I might need a pension,

ever the outsider.

thick socks

I'm thinking, I must be very thick, been wearing thick socks on a hot day in May.  May is a challenging month in terms of being comfortable in ones clothes, there can be clear blue skies in the mornings, promising warmth and sunshine but then I find myself riding to work in the rain, or battling a strong northerly, icy fresh wind, while I'm barely covered, maybe in just a t-shirt and then spend the rest of the day with white fingertips.

Do you know that feeling of having hot feet, wearing the wrong pair of socks, or the ones with hole, or odd ones, I wore odd shoes once but that's another story in another job.

So when I was told to look at the clock when I got back to the warehouse after tea break and it was 4.20 instead (tea break is 4-4.10pm), the fellow worker who walked in with me said she'd been to the toilet, I reminded myself of the importance of having an excuse but what came out of my mouth was "I'm wearing thick socks"

the end of another day and you got a free sausage today - what the fuck does that mean!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YgSPaXgAdzE&nohtml5=False

overcoming my pride

the christmas party

I am proud, I don't like to take hand outs or be the recipient of benevolent gestures from the corporation for which I pack books, I'd just like to be paid a living wage for my labour and service, and I'd like that work to be respected.

So,in the past I hadn't considered going to the works christmas party,I had instantly dismissed it as a patronising gesture and somehow very undignified to dress up and be a guest of my employers.

The gesture was to collect people, take them to the venue  for a meal and drinks and then a taxi home.

But

it was my birthday the day we told that we could reserve a place for the christmas party.  It was announced at the meeting that we needed to take a form from the team leaders desk, fill out our choice from the menu and then take it to the office with a £10 deposit, the deposit is returned on the night, and it was announced that places were limited this year as the number of staff had increased and based on figures for attendance at last year's party that only 200 places were available for 500 employees.

WHAT????

Ok, that's grossly unfair, and I tried to discuss it with others as we walked to our posts to start the day's shift but I didn't get much response ...I was furious