flexibility

No more holiday in June we were told (but come and see me if there are problems with that),  a couple of new titles are going to be released 'Grey by E L James the sequel to the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy by the same author and Harper Lee's new release Go Set a Watchman, so predictions are that the warehouse will be busy and in need of operatives.

But we are labour on 1 day a week contracts, the agency ensures we have one 7 and half hour shift/week, we get cancelled regularly on the morning of a day we've signed up to do a shift and are very often given inadequate shift and even if we are given a full week, the full time wage pack would be less than a living wage, so when I'm told I can't make my self unavailable for a shift it makes me mad, they are flexible but we are not supposed to be flexible

But I keep myself flexible, I do yoga, keeps my body supple and working for me, if I don't have time to do a full session at home (often I'm too tired), I'll use the bookshelves to stretch out after the bike ride and the constant bending and carrying books, I look after my body and keep it flexible, they are trying to put me in a straight jacket, no they won't they can't, if my body stops working, I can't work and that scares me - actually I had a kind of anxiety dream last night, big red swellings occurred in my body, the first was on my forearm then on my belly, another on my chest, huge red blobs that moved around under my skin, 'am I having a heart attack?I asked my sister, there were people around me, I wasn't alone, but I was scared, they made me lie down and I had a seizure I thrashed around (I wonder if I thrashed around in my bed in reality) when it stopped the swellings and what ever my body was going through then I asked what had happened, they said I'd had a seizure, then I noticed my mouth was full of thick white gunk that I had to expel it was vile, my mouth kept on filling up with gunk that I had to get rid of, when it stopped, I noticed half of my teeth were missing ...

So clearly I have anxiety about my body, it needs to work so that I can go to work, and I must be  flexible myself, Flexibility will be on my terms, not just to serve as flexible labour.